I am enjoying going through the One Year Bible and I have so much to write home about. I have had a number of ‘aha’ moments were I could not believe I had never seen that scripture like that before.
Every time I read Exodus, I feel for Moses. The guys he was leading were not motivating or encouraging followers. They complained before they asked. As I read I keep wondering, can’t they just ask, why are they whining? Of course I point at them not realizing that four of my fingers are pointing back at me.
I will share something that stood out recently. Moses tells God that ‘If the Israelites will not listen to me, then how will Pharaoh listen to me since I am a poor speaker?'(Exodus 6:18)
This statement hit home because I could see my insecurities in Moses. I do not know if you have been at a place where you have tried everything but you are just not performing as per the goals set out. I do not know if you have been at a place where you pray your boss out of the office because you fear that you are not reaching your fullest potential. Well, sometimes it’s true but other times it is not. I have learnt to evaluate myself before I pass the verdict because it is demotivating when your number one fan feels you are not performing. [Note to self, my number one fan is me]
I had an interesting scenario recently that made this scripture so alive for me. I was travelling to Dar-es-salaam and my suitcase was really heavy. I packed books like I was going for years (I am still wondering why I did that) but that’s me. I need to have a portion of my books with me everywhere I go plus extra notebooks just in case I use up my new note book 😉 Anyway, the bus people keep commenting about how heavy my suitcase was until I started feeling guilty. The guilt had worn off until we got to one of the weigh bridges, we kept going back and forth. My conclusion was that the bus was too heavy because of my suitcase and because I have gained weight. I felt that my personal weight plus the weight of my one suitcase was too heavy that the bus may need to pay extra charges.
So, when I see Moses fear to tell the Israelites and Pharaoh what God has said because he knows that he is a poor speaker, I understand. I understand because I have laughed at people give me responsibility while I am thinking about how insufficient I am and how they maybe sorry. I understand because I have a tendency to take the blame for failure that may not be mine at all just because I was near by. I know how to list all the things that may really not be working for but against me in every scenario. I understand Moses in ways I did not know before.
However, I have been receiving deliverance in this area as I have read the writings in the Bible. I am learning that my felt inefficiencies or insecurities can not limit God’s work in my life or in the lives of those people He has put in my life. I like to say that ‘God uses donkeys and I am the donkey’ because I know that without Him, all this perceived swag would not be their.
So, as you go through the year. Remember, your felt inefficiencies or insecurities can not limit God’s work in your life or in the lives of those people He has put in your life